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I WON’T SURRENDER

August 16, 2021

The fact of the matter is,
I define what an addict is.
If a righteous path exists,
I’d much rather resist.
I’m insane going against the grain;
the only way to go.
The Lord forsakes my soul, but
it won’t play a major role.
Now that’s honesty, this so-called
society of sobriety is a mockery.
I mean, it’s gotta be.
There’s no power higher than me.
And if I’m known to fail,
I’ll remain cold as hell.
So, you go turn over your will.
I don’t need coping skills.
They tell me to do some things I never did before.
Like take a step towards faith,
then take eleven more.
They keep talking about honesty, openness, and willingness.
But how can I start spilling it when
I don’t know where my feelings went?
I thought I’ll be this way forever
‘til it’s all done.
Now suddenly, I don’t need to keep my guard up.
wont
as sick as me?
Acting like it’s an epiphany.
You gotta be kidding me.
I’ll just keep adding to the voice
that’s playing in your head.
And if you want to sleep forever,
I’ll help you make your bed.
I won’t surrender…

~ Christino H.

This writing is selected as an excerpt from the book Effective Use of Creative Writing in the Treatment of Addiction to Chemical Substances, Eric A. Kreuter, Ph.D., editor, a clinician at St. Christopher’s Inn.
It is published by Nova Science Publishers, to learn more click HERE.

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